Where am I headed?Where am I going?
From the raging seas into the whirling rivers?
I thought I kept a mirror with me always,
To remind myself of who I am.,
When did that become an illusion?
When did I start dreaming?
I kept away from it,
Made a wall to make it not reach me,
I lowered my eyes from it,
I turned my back to it,
When did it come so near to touch my shadow?
When did it make my heart beat?
Days alone, faking a smile,
Nights alone, letting that one tear escape,
I thought I was strong enough,
Not to fall again,
When did I fall to look up?
When did I let it get better of me?
I was happy, or thought so at least,
Getting through, getting along,
Thought things are in place,
Thought I was out of the race,
When did the desperation come in?
When did my eyes start searching?
Never realized this will be so tough,
I thought I was strong enough for everything,
Pretending still to be,
In search of that solitude again,
Knowing nothing is going anywhere,
I smile without a reason,
When did I open my arms again?
When did things happen?
unanswered questions, untold feelings,
thought i was done with it,
stopping and thinking,
afraid again of what will happen,
when did i start leaning?
when did it start glowing?
when.....................
